I thought I would let you into my world of music a little bit. Three songs have been my theme. In a time when I just don't feel like singing. When it seems impossible to rejoice. When I feel completely exhausted by 9:00am and the sky is never blue in my eyes.
I have three songs in a playlist entitled "Worn" that I created on Spotify. Yes, only three songs. Here they are...
1. "Worn" by Tenth Avenue North
(for some reason the embedded videos aren't showing up on mobile devices, so you can click on the titles and it will take you to the YouTube video)
2. "Reason to Sing" by All Sons & Daughters
3. "Grace is Sufficient" by Shane & Shane
*Disregard the first 18 seconds of this song... I've never understood why they started it with the funky little guitar/piano jig. I honestly don't like that part at all, and it sounds nothing like the rest of the song. So don't be turned off by those first few seconds.
I'm worn. I'm searching for a reason to sing. And literally, the only thing I can hear from my God right now is Him saying, "My grace is sufficient for you."
Through gritted teeth...
"This is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it."
Dear Jesus, our beautiful Savior, help Jordan, help Jordan, help Jordan. She needs you, she needs your love and mercy and comfort and strength to be wrapped around her. You have said in your word you will sustain her, let her feel you now. Thank you for always being with Jordan. Amen
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for this prayer. This means so much to me!
DeleteJordan~when i read this post all I could say was Bless Her Heart! I realized as I fell asleep last night that 6 months ago today my daddy went to be with Jesus and 18 days later Mother followed him. This came to me as I pondered why I was so sad yesterday and truly ached to see my folks. I bought butter beans to make because I knew they loved them and when I left the store, I saw a couple walking in the parking lot and the husband was carrying the wife's purse, my daddy ALWAYS carried Mother's purse, it took my breath and made me cry! So, I do know what you are going through and I do understand, it is hard and it does stink and you wouldn't want to wish her back from Heaven for anything, but you still MISS her to the depth of your soul. I'm praying for you dear! But it does get better.........you have to believe that!
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Rebecca
There are so many unexpected things that happen to trigger the tears and sadness like that! I do believe it does and will get better. Satan tries so hard to tell me that it won't. That's probably one of the hardest things I am battling right now. Satan and his stupid lies. But deep down, I know, I KNOW it will get better!
DeleteJordan - I followed your mom's post and now yours and Jenna's. I too lost my mom, I was 36 and it has been 15 yrs, but I remember that day in it's many details. There are still many times I think, I need to call mom and tell her this or that, share news or just complain about my day. And then I realize that I can't do that and it still takes my breath away. No one loves you like a mom, loves you just because you are you. The biggest comfort is that I know she is celebrating in Heaven with our Savior and wouldn't trade a minute to come back here with us. The scriptures, devotions and music were huge heart healers as it seems I found just the right verse or heard the right song that was just what my heart needed. May you feel the love of not only your Savior, but also of the many prayers being lifted up for your family as you begin this new journey down a new path.
ReplyDeleteIt is a comfort to think of her resting at the feet of Jesus fully restored and healed. Still doesn't take away the pain of missing, but you're right, I would never ask her to come back here. Thank you for sharing!
DeleteI think about you often. My mother is battling the awfulness that is ovarian cancer. She is suffering. It's so hard. One song that is on repeat for me is "though you slay me" by Shane and Shane. Grace upon grace.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear that your momma is fighting this dreadful fight. I hate it so much. But God is able. I still believe that He is able to heal! I love love love that song by Shane and Shane. One of my favorites.
DeleteThese are so good and worship can be so healing. I've dealt with anxiety for awhile now and even though my battle is very different, these words are so encouraging. I'm thankful His grace is sufficient. I've really been enjoying this song (Come to Me by Bethel): http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=sY0Vz8fvIhE&feature=kp
ReplyDeleteJennifer, I've been listening to this song nonstop since you mentioned it. I literally listened to it at least 8 or 10 times yesterday. Love it so much! Thanks for telling me about it!
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