So last night, she looked like her healthy, pre-cancer self. I can't remember where we were, but she was sitting. In this dream I knew that I had been with her for a couple of hours, although I can't recall what all we had been doing together. But then I finally remembered, she's been in heaven for over a month now! I've got to ask her about heaven! So I did. I asked her what Jesus looked like. I asked her if He had scars on his hands. And I asked her who greeted her when she got there. The only answer I remember her telling me is that yes, Jesus does have scars on his hands! (check out John 20:24-29) How beautiful! My mom has seen our Savior face-to-face. She has seen the scars that He bears in remembrance of the sacrifice He made on our behalf. The scars to remind us that we have been bought with a price.
A couple nights ago I dreamed that her hair had grown back, and she wasn't sure how she liked it. She was debating if she was going to cut it or not. This is entirely accurate of who she was before she got sick.
In one dream, I hugged her. She didn't say anything. She just sat there and smiled at me and let me hug her. Her smile simply said, "I love you." I know that's what she was saying to me with her eyes and with that big beautiful smile.
She texted me once. I looked down at my phone and on the message preview I saw that is was from "Mom" and all she said were those precious three words... "I love you." Oh! How I miss being able to text and call her. I cherish that dream. Something as simple as a text message...
In another dream I remember asking her, "Mom, so you've been in heaven a day and a half now. What's it like?" The only thing I remember her telling me was that she started singing "Say Say" and everyone joined in with her. She said it was beautiful.
"Say Say" is a song by Kristian Stanfill that Tony and Hudson (my now 3 and half year old nephew) would always, and I mean always, drum to! What's really crazy about this dream I had, is that the next day my family and I had to meet at the funeral home for something. Bryan and Jenna told me that on the way to the funeral home, Hudson was looking out the window and he said, "I see G-ma in the sky!" They asked him what G-ma was doing. He said that she was dancing and singing. Well, guess what song he said she was singing?..... Yep, "Say Say". I about fell on the floor when they told me about this considering the dream I had the night before. I have no idea what God allows little children to see and experience - but I don't doubt for a second what Hudson said he saw. I know my momma is up there dancing with the angels singing "Say Say" and I can't wait to get up there and join her!
So, now I find it very appropriate to share with you the song Mom has been singing in heaven, "Say Say". And in honor of her and our King Jesus, I invite you to crank up the volume a little bit, let loose and jam out - because I'm sure that's exactly what she has been doing, and who knows, maybe she'll join in unison with you while you listen and sing :)
"This is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it."