Monday, August 24, 2015

Prayers Needed

Grief has raised its ugly head up high, and I am in desperate need of your prayers. I am struggling with longing for what life used to be and accepting what it is today.

Here is a small snippet of some thoughts I wrote down earlier:

I still love God. I know I owe him my life. He sent Jesus to die for me. I know I cannot be saved apart from Him. I need Him. I desperately need Him. I am nothing without Him. I cannot thrive in this life without Him. But I'm so angry with Him. I am in a constant war. My flesh will not give up. My spirit wants to submit. To surrender. I want to be done fighting. But my flesh is so stubborn.

From the deepest part of my soul, I miss what life used to be. More than words could ever express. I cannot explain the ache I feel inside of me. The ripped apart, gaping, bleeding, breathless, empty hole.

I feel as though all my hopes and dreams have been shattered.

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Please, today, I just ask for your prayers. I need hope. I need peace, and I need joy. I need to submit my will to His. 
To those of you who have been praying for me, and to those of you who might say a short prayer in this moment, thank you.

23 comments:

  1. Oh, Jordan this brings tears to my eyes. I will be praying for you to be set free from the pangs of the grief you are experiencing. God still has so much in store for you and your Mom would be so proud of all that you are becoming in her absence. May you find rest for your soul.

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  2. Lord God,
    I lift up your precious daughter Jordan. Hold her close and help her to feel your presence, your love and your peace. Comfort her and heal her tender heart. Keep the enemy away from her and let your peace wash over her. Make yourself known to her and give her strength. You are an awesome God and we ask these things in Jesus' name. Amen

    God bless you Jordan,
    Susan in Indiana

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  3. I will be praying for you. I can't begin to understand your grief but God does.

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  4. Jesus. Give Jordan your peace. Your joy. Your peace. Your joy. Help her flesh to align with your spirit and desires for her life. amen.

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  5. Praying for you, Jordan. My grief is different than your grief, but I do know the loss of a dear parent and my heart aches in knowing how your heart is hurting. Thinking of you.

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  6. Prayers for you, Jordan. I understand the anger with God, yet the desperate need for Him. May you feel His peace and His presence.

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  7. Praying for you, Jordan. May our God of all peace fill you with His peace, joy and hope. You are so strong, hon. Sending big hugs!! xx

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  8. Praying for you, Jordan. May our God of all peace fill you with His peace, joy and hope. You are so strong, hon. Sending big hugs!! xx

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  9. Praying for you, Jordan. May our God of all peace fill you with His peace, joy and hope. You are so strong, hon. Sending big hugs!! xx

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  10. Checking in, Jordan. How are you doing? Praying the Holy Spirit intercedes where you can't find words. You are loved!

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  11. Please go talk to your doctor. Help is there. I know it is scary to open up, but you will feel so much better.

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  12. Praying for you sweet Jordan. Please let us know how you are doing. If I lived near by, I would take you out to a long lunch & just listen. xoxo

    Melissa

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  13. Hi!
    I just wondered how you are doing.
    Sending prayers to you:)

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  14. Just discovered your blog and I'm praying for you. Lord, be with Jordan in this very moment. Comfort her as she grieves. Remind her in a deeply personal way how much you love her. Grant her rest and peace as she nurtures her sweet child and looks to you for grace and mercy in all things. Let her rejoice over the joy of your salvation. In Jesus' precious name, Amen.

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  15. I am so sorry for the loss, and grief you are experiencing. Sending up prayers!

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